a confused mind

i freeze out here in the summer breeze,

 i ache for warmth to touch my heart,

 im lost while following a map,

 im alone in a crowd of people,

im scared of death,

yet i hate to live. 

 

im so confused with out you,

yet so angry with you,

i need you in my life,

yet i want you out of it,

i want you to come home,

yet i want you gone forever.

i shatter slowly in the wind,

i mend quickly with a hammer,

i fear the road ahead,

i regret the road behind,

i loath to this so soon,

i yearn to get out fast